after it all, this is how it ends?
without a second thought, or care from you?
how soulless must you be?
i didn't deserve this to go through.
you owe me more.
after everything we were together.
you can say it's done?
that's bullshit and you know it.
you coward. all you know is to run.
you owe me more.
fuck you for leaving when i needed you the most.
oh ya, did you think i forgot?
waking up alone was awesome.
knowing you left me to rot.
you fucking owe me more.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
time
they say you heal, but now you only bring pain.
why should i play in this never ending game.
feels like im speeding on a road with one lane.
looking for a head on crash, holding no shame.
words can't piece together all of this mess.
you're gone without a goodbye.
my word now is only a best guess.
as to how you could turn, and alone let me die.
this now with someone else is wrong.
but forever to me now you're dead.
and know that when you hear this song.
remind yourself, you'll never again sleep in this bed.
why should i play in this never ending game.
feels like im speeding on a road with one lane.
looking for a head on crash, holding no shame.
words can't piece together all of this mess.
you're gone without a goodbye.
my word now is only a best guess.
as to how you could turn, and alone let me die.
this now with someone else is wrong.
but forever to me now you're dead.
and know that when you hear this song.
remind yourself, you'll never again sleep in this bed.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
slapintheface
b,
you've lost all my respect. but you had to. for me to let this go. you had to stoop to that. to nothing. the girl, ladies and gentleman, i fell in love with is dead. yes. this hurts like hell. yes, i miss THAT girl like hell. the memorial service was held in my back yard earlier today. where i burned all your pictures and all our memories. may they forever rest in peace. because i know i will.
so short a time and you go. HA. and back to him?? pfffff hahaha. you kill me honestly. well since this is one of those internet dating things... i'll give it... two months before he's with some 16 year old. and you feel sorry for me?? ouch, you must be right. i must have fucked you up entirely for your brain to function like this. but hey, don't give me all the credit. if you weren't such a cunt all the time i wouldn't have had to been an asshole. oh, did i just say that? ya. i did. welcome to your place b, and i didn't even have to put you there. you dug your own grave and well love, now you'll be buried in it.
oh and when he does leave you for the high school sophomore, don't expect me to even be there to laugh. by that point, it'll just be too sad to bare. you were once a great person, and you chose to lose her. bad move kid.
-d
you've lost all my respect. but you had to. for me to let this go. you had to stoop to that. to nothing. the girl, ladies and gentleman, i fell in love with is dead. yes. this hurts like hell. yes, i miss THAT girl like hell. the memorial service was held in my back yard earlier today. where i burned all your pictures and all our memories. may they forever rest in peace. because i know i will.
so short a time and you go. HA. and back to him?? pfffff hahaha. you kill me honestly. well since this is one of those internet dating things... i'll give it... two months before he's with some 16 year old. and you feel sorry for me?? ouch, you must be right. i must have fucked you up entirely for your brain to function like this. but hey, don't give me all the credit. if you weren't such a cunt all the time i wouldn't have had to been an asshole. oh, did i just say that? ya. i did. welcome to your place b, and i didn't even have to put you there. you dug your own grave and well love, now you'll be buried in it.
oh and when he does leave you for the high school sophomore, don't expect me to even be there to laugh. by that point, it'll just be too sad to bare. you were once a great person, and you chose to lose her. bad move kid.
-d
nightmare
B,
you're tearing me apart. piece by piece. if u want the heart, take it. stop fucking around, just take it. its not fair you haunt me everywhere. i can't get away. there is no escape. under every stone, in every corner, at every venue, in my room, in my head. if you want to stay then make it be known. stop tormenting me with this cat and mouse. i miss you terribly and i just want you back. something that's real again, something i can touch, hold, kiss, and just be with. i know you miss those nights, and these lonely nights are only making things worse. i love you. always. still more than anything.
-d
you're tearing me apart. piece by piece. if u want the heart, take it. stop fucking around, just take it. its not fair you haunt me everywhere. i can't get away. there is no escape. under every stone, in every corner, at every venue, in my room, in my head. if you want to stay then make it be known. stop tormenting me with this cat and mouse. i miss you terribly and i just want you back. something that's real again, something i can touch, hold, kiss, and just be with. i know you miss those nights, and these lonely nights are only making things worse. i love you. always. still more than anything.
-d
Friday, October 23, 2009
OUCH!
awesome waves... nothing caps a great day of surfing like a fin to the face... nice 3 inch cut on my cheek/jaw.
so do me the honor and come with me, not just for the night but forever... into the sky... into the sea... into space... into the night... into forever...
we were perfect. you still know that it's still the same... you know you're still my first and last and i hope i'm still the same for you...
B, stop this mess. stop this pain. come home. come into forever again.
-d
so do me the honor and come with me, not just for the night but forever... into the sky... into the sea... into space... into the night... into forever...
we were perfect. you still know that it's still the same... you know you're still my first and last and i hope i'm still the same for you...
B, stop this mess. stop this pain. come home. come into forever again.
-d
hmm you never said anything about an award...
saving lives means nothing anymore...
after the first couple you realize you're just doing your job, after a couple more you realize you're a babysitter. but in some cases, yes, recognition is noteworthy. guess it was that damn good.
why the suspicion B? its true and honest. something new, yes. you know what you know B, you know where we are and what we need to be. no pressure, no force, no ill-will. you know where we should be, and that's with each other B.
- d
after the first couple you realize you're just doing your job, after a couple more you realize you're a babysitter. but in some cases, yes, recognition is noteworthy. guess it was that damn good.
why the suspicion B? its true and honest. something new, yes. you know what you know B, you know where we are and what we need to be. no pressure, no force, no ill-will. you know where we should be, and that's with each other B.
- d
Thursday, October 22, 2009
ears and tears
the songs don't stop, even when no music is playing, they are always on shuffle in my head.
...always...
it's not misery... it's joyous.
just wish you were here to experience it...
the world is a vampire...
i know there's still some feeling left in you... or you won't have responded yesterday...
i talk to you every now and then... i never felt so alone again...
the cross i bare, the monkey on my back, the me i must live with.
its all changed now. i've never been so scared. how does something i love so, frighten me to death?
...i guess this is growing up...
drowning in the echoes of drums
escape
to peace
with a crash, flam, boom...
the addiction isn't suppressed... just diverted... a detour if you will...
soon... it'll be back
like a terminator... looking for one thing
blood.
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